my mind has been an absolute clusterfuck the last few days. im confused and scared and no amount of thinking or discussion has been able to calm me down. im dying for it to be january already so i can feel a sense of clarity in life knowing that im officially done with school… but truth be told, school is the only thing keeping me sane right now. this is the most space ive had to myself in a long time and its absolutely suffocating. i no longer know what i want, or even who i am. all i know is that twenty… twenty fucking years isnt enough to know. it isnt enough time to answer all the questions that loom on the horizon of a cross-country move, and increasingly serious relationship. it isnt enough time to have shit even marginally figured out. it isnt enough time…

we never have enough time…